At last things are getting a bit back to normal, as near as my life gets to normal anyway.
My daughter has returned to school, still on crutches but the knee is healing well, she will be having a lot of physio and everyone hopes she will be back playing hockey by September.
Unfortunately the just after my daughter's accident my friend and cleaner started her a new job and I am thus cleaner-less so the house is in a real state as I have had no time to sort it out.
Andrew has also gone back as he has some work in the UK to attend to, glamourous photoshoots and the like! The good news is that while he is there he is finally going to get an assessment and hopefully then some help and treatment for his depression.
The trouble is with the stress of the last few weeks and now him having gone, I am feeling seriously underspanked and grouchy and I am not sure how I will get through the next 10 days until he returns.
Trouble is the whole issue of being separated from him gets me down and makes me irrationally angry and thus tends to make me behave stupidly towards him. I know we have to be separated for a lot of the time, we knew that when we got together, BUT, I don't like it one bit, even though I am used to looking after myself when he is gone I feel small and vulnerable. Silly isn't it.
Hil
1 comment:
I feel exactly this way! I know I can handle myself alone. I have for years. But letting my submissive side rise up has left me feeling so much more vulnerable. I, too, hate it when we are apart, though we clearly will be for at least a couple more years! How to stay vulnerable and strong at the same time??? Ugh.
Thanks for a nice post.
Maryann
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